On the Comfort of Tidy Lives
The encounter began with a small act of neighbourhood etiquette.
She had left the light on in her car. I noticed it in the evening and walked over to her house to tell her. A couple of days later we met again. She wanted to thank me with a jar of honey.
She is a young teacher and lives in a house that belongs to a Christian association. When I first heard that, I asked half-jokingly whether she was a priest. She laughed and said no, she was simply a believer.
From there the conversation moved quickly into familiar territory. Religion. Values. People we both knew.
It was a friendly conversation. She was warm, polite, completely pleasant. Yet I felt something subtle underneath it. A kind of quiet moral clarity. Not aggressive, not judgmental, but very certain.
The world seemed to fall naturally into place for her.
Some people are believers.
Some people are not.
Some people live properly.
Some people do not.
There was also a tone of optimism in the way she spoke about life. As if a good and orderly life were not only desirable, but also fairly attainable if one simply lived correctly.
And that is where I noticed a strange reaction in myself.
Part of me admired it.
Another part of me recoiled.