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Donald Trump and the Price of Volatility

Donald Trump was in Switzerland last week, speaking in Davos at the World Economic Forum. By coincidence, I was there too, though nowhere near him. The closest I came was by mistake. I got lost while looking for a place to park, took a wrong turn, and suddenly found myself in front of his hotel, boxed in by barriers and about twenty masked policemen, with dogs and mirrors sliding under cars. I rolled down my window and put on the most innocent Swiss face I have. They didn’t make a fuss, but it was enough to feel the density of real-world power.

Davos has that effect. It compresses things. Influence, proximity, authority. Trump’s appearance there felt the same way. Not a new chapter, not a surprise, but a concentration. The style, the signaling, the reversals, the noise, all packed into a single appearance. If you want to understand what has been building throughout his presidency, Davos was not a detour. It was the moment when the pattern became visible at scale.

Seen that way, the confusion around Trump starts to make sense.

The End of Corrective Reality

The conversation broke down over a single word.

I was speaking with a fellow school social worker, a woman with more than fifteen years in the field. At some point, I said that learning can be painful. I added that sometimes the obstacle is the way. Not as metaphor. As a plain description of how people grow.

She froze.

Not in disagreement but in confusion.

Pain, in her frame, could only mean harm.

Why Some Men Want to Become Women

Something historically strange is happening in the West. Large numbers of men in Western societies are opting out of manhood altogether. Not rebelling against masculine norms. Not reshaping them. Leaving the category itself. This has not happened before. Not at this scale. Not in societies that are safe, wealthy, and obsessed with self-expression. History gives us eunuchs, ritual cross-dressers, third-gender roles, sacred inversions, carnival play. What it does not give us is mass abandonment of male identity in cultures that officially celebrate freedom and authenticity. That alone tells us this is not simply a timeless truth finally being allowed to surface. It is about incentives.

For most of Western history, being a man was not an identity but an achievement.

Asleep at the Wheel

None of this was a surprise.

The demographic collapse unfolding across Europe, East Asia, and much of the developed world was not discovered last week. It was not an unforeseen side effect of smartphones or dating apps or bad vibes. It was mapped, modeled, and warned about decades ago by demographers and sociologists who understood a simple constraint: societies that stop reproducing themselves do not continue by rhetoric alone.

This was already clear in the mid-twentieth century. Industrialization detaches work from family. Urbanization raises the cost of children. Education delays adulthood. Sexual liberation separates intimacy from reproduction. Individual autonomy replaces obligation. Fertility falls. Not maybe. Not occasionally. Structurally.

The warnings were not moral. They were mathematical.

Sanctioning Neutrality

I didn’t follow Jacques Baud closely. I don’t live inside the daily churn of war commentary, expert panels, or Telegram prophets. I know there is a war. I worked with Ukrainian refugees. I know there is propaganda on all sides. I also know that in every conflict, reality is usually more tragic and more ambiguous than the slogans suggest.

So when I heard that the European Union had sanctioned a Swiss citizen, a former intelligence officer, I paused.

Sanctions are not symbolic gestures. They are not an argument. They are a financial and civic execution.

The Death of Arthur

Arthur did not die at Camlann.

He died later, quietly, under layers of good intentions.

From a distance, the Arthurian legend looks irresistible: a round table instead of hierarchy, a just king rising from chaos, a Britain suspended between Rome and something new. It has all the ingredients of a great myth. But move closer and the spell breaks. The story does not deepen. It frays. It starts contradicting itself, apologizing for itself, explaining itself away. What you discover is not a myth that evolved, but a myth that was edited to death.

Arthur is the victim of a genre collision.

Identity Without Skin

We like to think of ourselves as free. Especially in modern societies. Free to choose, free to define ourselves, free to become. And yet there is a quiet paradox at the heart of this promise: the more freedom we are told we have, the more rigid people seem to become.

What looks like liberation increasingly behaves like conformity with better marketing.

Modern identity no longer grows out of lived experience. It is selected. Chosen from a shelf. Adopted as a complete package. Political identity, gender identity, professional identity, moral identity. Each arrives fully assembled, with approved vocabulary, approved concerns, approved blind spots. The role answers the questions before you have had time to form them.

This produces something that looks like diversity but feels like sameness.

Hierarchy Theater

Job interviews like to pretend they are conversations. They are not. Most of the time they resemble a low-budget television format with a rigid script and a passive audience. The interviewer sits back, relaxed, waiting to be entertained. The candidate is expected to perform: narrate a life, confess weaknesses disguised as strengths, radiate motivation on command. The ritual is familiar, soothing, and mostly empty. Everyone knows the lines. Nobody learns much.

The trouble begins when you refuse to play along.

Too Late to Be Here

Nobody has ever been where they thought they were.

Quantum Rhetoric and the Collapse of Political Meaning

Schrödinger’s cat was invented to expose nonsense. A dead-and-alive cat was never meant to be taken seriously. It was a warning: if your theory leads you here, your theory is broken.

Politics discovered that nonsense can be operationally superior to truth.

What we live with now is Schrödinger speech: statements that are said and unsaid at the same time, positions that exist in two mutually exclusive states until an audience forces them to collapse. Not because reality is complex, but because accountability is inconvenient.

A German politician says something explosive live on television about the possible censorship of alternative media. Strong enough to signal virtue. Sharp enough to draw blood. The media amplifies it. Outrage follows. Then consequences appear. Allies flinch. The wrong people benefit.

Suddenly, nuance is discovered.

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Three scenes. Different places, different people. One shared mistake.

The first took place at a university, maybe ten years ago. An amok alarm went off. No one knew whether it was a drill, a malfunction, or something real. I was older than most students, having arrived late to academia after years elsewhere. Instinct kicked in the way it used to: identify exits, move people, reduce risk.

What happened instead felt unreal. A group of young female social work students ran away from me laughing, giggling, turning the uncertainty into a kind of game. The alarm became background noise. The possibility of real danger was treated like a role-play nobody had agreed to, but everyone mocked anyway. It was later declared a false alarm. That detail is irrelevant. In real life, you never know that in advance.

The second scene was worse.

The Changing Poles

For a long time, race was a word you expected to hear from the political right. It came wrapped in crude hierarchies, biological myths, and talk of superiority and decline. Race functioned as a blunt instrument, a way to simplify a complicated world by sorting people into fixed categories. Liberal societies pushed back against this, and rightly so. The lesson was hard-earned and clear: judging people by race leads nowhere good.

What is striking is how quietly the poles have shifted.

Race has not disappeared from our moral language. It has migrated. Today, it sits comfortably within progressive discourse, only flipped upside down. Where the old right ranked races in terms of superiority, the new moral framework assigns value through victimhood. Race has become a form of moral currency. Some identities arrive with built-in credibility, others with an assumed deficit. The categories have changed. The moral story has inverted. But the structure feels eerily familiar.

In this new system, belonging to a historically disadvantaged group confers automatic authority.

Thin Ice Politics

We live in a time where politics no longer feels like a contest of ideas but like a test of psychological endurance. The old coordinates still exist, left and right, but they no longer explain what is happening. They describe positions, not dynamics. What we are watching now are two different kinds of breakdown, moving in opposite directions, each dangerous in its own way, each feeding the other.

The radical right is easier to recognize. Its impulse is restoration. It wants solidity, hierarchy, rules, borders, certainty. It looks backward, convinced that order once existed and can be reinstalled if only the right people are strong enough. The psychology is rigid, sometimes brutal, often resentful, but coherent. The world is simplified until it becomes legible again through force. The danger is obvious. Cruelty justified as strength. Exclusion framed as necessity. Power mistaken for competence. History has already run this experiment, and the results are not ambiguous.

Cultural Power and the Megaphone Effect

One of the quiet mistakes of modern life is believing that visibility equals relevance.

Take veganism. Not because it matters so much in itself, but because it exposes a mechanism. A position held by a small minority becomes omnipresent. Menus change. Advertising follows. Corporate language adjusts. Media coverage multiplies. The impression forms that society is undergoing a decisive moral shift.

It isn’t. What is happening is amplification.

The Revolution That Never Ended

History is rarely written by liars.

But it is almost always written by winners. And winners, even when they tell the truth, tell it selectively. Over time, their version hardens into moral common sense. Certain events become untouchable. Certain judgments feel settled. One of those events is the French Revolution.

Ask almost anyone today and the reflex is automatic: liberté, égalité, fraternité. Progress. Emancipation. The birth of modern democracy. The Revolution is remembered not merely as a historical rupture, but as a moral awakening. Its excesses are acknowledged politely, framed as unfortunate side effects of an otherwise necessary transformation. The Terror becomes an accident. The old order was rotten, and it had to go.

But that framing already assumes the verdict.

A Sports Hall and the Desire to Do Everything Right

In a small town in Switzerland, officials are debating whether a newly built sports hall may have to be demolished and rebuilt. This is not satire. A project conceived as a model of sustainability may end up being constructed twice.

If reducing resource use and CO₂ emissions was the aim, it has been missed in the most literal way possible. Few things are less sustainable than tearing down a new building because it cannot be trusted to stand.

That is where astonishment sets in.

From Punk to Pariah

There was a time when criticizing the establishment made you unfashionable, irritating, perhaps unemployable for a while. You were loud, badly dressed, and likely wrong about several things. But you were legible. You were a punk. Everyone knew what that meant.

Today, criticizing the establishment still makes you unfashionable, irritating, and potentially unemployable. The difference is that it also makes you morally suspicious.

This is progress.

In the 1970s and 80s, dissent was expected to be crude. Anti-establishment voices were tolerated precisely because they were marginal. They existed outside the system, shouting at it from the pavement. Institutions could afford to ignore them, mock them, or occasionally repress them, because they did not claim moral perfection themselves. Power justified itself through authority, stability, and order. If you challenged it, the conflict was visible and external. You fought the system; the system pushed back.

At some point, that structure changed.

The establishment stopped presenting itself primarily as powerful and started presenting itself as good. Control learned to speak gently. The baton was replaced by the diagnosis. Once that happened, dissent ceased to be disagreement and became pathology. You were no longer wrong; you were problematic. You didn’t hold a position; you embodied a flaw.

This was more efficient.

What We Can Learn from Benjamin Netanyahu and Where It Becomes Dangerous

Benjamin Netanyahu is not an accident of history, nor a deviation from democratic politics. He is what political power looks like when it is exercised for a long time under permanent pressure. To understand him is not to excuse him. It is to understand the conditions under which a system tolerates, and eventually prefers, a certain kind of leader.

Netanyahu’s central achievement is not popularity. It is indispensability. He positioned himself not as a visionary or reformer, but as a stabiliser in a hostile environment. His message is not “I will improve your life,” but “Without me, things will get worse.”

This lowers expectations and raises tolerance.

Rethinking Addiction

My father drank himself to death.

Not metaphorically. Not slowly fading. He destroyed his body until it stopped functioning, then kept drinking anyway. Toward the end, he broke his hip in his apartment. He could no longer stand. He could not walk. He refused doctors. He refused hospitals.

He lay immobilised in his bed, in his own filth. Friends brought him alcohol so he could dull the pain. Even his guardian from social services supplied it, something I still find deeply unsettling. Even then, unable to move and lying in his own excrement, my father did not stop drinking. He died there, drinking until the end.

This was not a loss of control.

It was persistence.

Watching that kind of alcoholism from the inside forces a question most people never have to ask seriously: what, exactly, is being treated by the substance?

On Against All Odds

Against All Odds is often remembered as a stylish neo-noir, all sun-bleached surfaces, doomed romance, and moral decay. But beneath the glossy fatalism, the film stages a quiet philosophical conflict between two modes of being in the world. Not good and evil. Not innocence and corruption. But presence versus exposure.

The conflict is embodied in two men who never quite belong to the same reality.

Jeff Bridges plays Terry Brogan as a man who moves through the world without illusion, yet without aggression. He sees corruption, understands power, recognizes manipulation, but does not organize his life around dismantling it. His clarity is lived, not weaponized. He does not rush to judge or dominate events. He absorbs them, stands his ground, and accepts the cost of staying intact.

Opposite him stands Jake Wise, played by James Woods, a man for whom seeing is never enough. Jake needs exposure. He needs leverage. He needs truth not as something to live with, but as something to use. Where Brogan remains inside the world, Jake positions himself above it, scanning for contradictions, weaknesses, pressure points.

This is not simply a contrast between calm and intensity. It is a contrast between two philosophies of truth.

After the Dice Rolled

Once you look at Christian Church history long enough, belief stops feeling like standing on rock and starts feeling like standing on the outcome of a thousand quarrels.

People are told “the Church teaches” as if the teaching arrived intact, like a sealed crate delivered from heaven. But the Church did not receive a crate. It assembled a library while arguing about which books belonged in it. It developed a vocabulary while fighting over what words were allowed to mean. It built an institution while insisting it was merely guarding something timeless. Then, after the smoke cleared, it called the surviving version inevitable.

That is where belief begins to feel like a roll of the dice.

Freedom Without a Compass

Women’s liberation began as a sober project. Its original aim was simple enough to sound almost banal today: women should not be legally, economically, or socially trapped by their sex. They should be able to work, to study, to choose partners freely, to leave bad situations, and to exist as full subjects rather than supporting characters in someone else’s life.

Early feminist thinkers were not interested in spectacle. They were interested in freedom in a classical sense: autonomy, responsibility, and the capacity to shape one’s own life without being assigned a predefined role. Sexual liberation was part of this, but it was never meant to be the center. It aimed to remove moral panic from intimacy, not to turn sexuality into a career path.

Then something quietly shifted.

When Sheep Eat People

Thomas More’s Utopia, published in 1516, is often misunderstood as a naive blueprint for a perfect society. It is nothing of the sort.

Utopia is framed as a dialogue between Thomas More himself, the humanist Peter Giles, and a seasoned traveler named Raphael Hythloday. Hythloday claims to have journeyed with Amerigo Vespucci and to have spent years living on a distant island called Utopia. The name itself is a provocation. It means both “no place” and, by a near-homonym, “good place.” From the start, More signals that what follows is not a literal proposal but a thought experiment.

Hythloday describes Utopia in meticulous detail.

After the House Was Torn Down

The Enlightenment did something extraordinary.

It tore down the house we had been living in.

That house was old. Some of its rooms were dark. Some were unjust. Some hid cruelty behind tradition and authority. Its foundations were not rationally designed, and its structure could not always justify itself. The Enlightenment was right to open the walls, to let light in, to ask dangerous questions.

And it succeeded.

The house was dismantled piece by piece.

Hierarchy was flattened.

Authority was questioned.

Tradition lost its automatic legitimacy.

Inherited roles were exposed as contingent rather than sacred.

What remained was an open space.

Analogy of a Catastrophe

I normally avoid commenting on news stories. Not because they do not matter, but because most commentary replaces thinking with reflex. Outrage is cheap. It creates noise, not clarity.

This case is different.

Over New Year’s, a fire broke out in a bar in the canton of Valais, quite far from where I live in Switzerland. Forty people died. As the facts emerged, it became clear that nearly half of them were minors. Some were fourteen years old. The fire started shortly after one in the morning.

For a country like Switzerland, this is deeply unsettling. We are used to assuming that layered safety regulations, inspections, and institutional responsibility make disasters of this scale nearly impossible. That assumption has now collapsed.

So the real question is not what happened, but how it was allowed to happen.

Heresy Without God

Scholasticism was the dominant intellectual method of medieval Europe. It was how educated people were trained to think, argue, and reason. Its purpose was not free exploration, but internal coherence. Truth was assumed to already exist. The task of the thinker was not to discover new foundations, but to clarify, systematize, and defend the given ones through disciplined argument.

Scholasticism was not stupidity.

It was order.

In medieval Europe, it emerged as a rigorous way of thinking inside a fragile civilization. Truth was given. God existed. Scripture was authoritative. Salvation mattered. Within those assumptions, thinkers were encouraged to argue fiercely. They dissected concepts, listed objections, refined distinctions, and reconciled contradictions with extraordinary precision. The method was serious, logical, and exacting.

But it had limits.

Yes and No

In the twelfth century, Peter Abelard wrote a strange little book called Sic et Non, Yes and No. It did not tell readers what to believe. Instead, it placed authoritative Christian texts side by side that flatly contradicted each other. One Church Father said yes. Another said no. Both were respected. Both were orthodox. Abelard offered no resolution. His point was not to solve the contradiction but to force the reader to think.

What made this radical was not disagreement itself. Disagreement had always existed. What shocked people was the refusal to harmonize it. Abelard quietly implied that moral and theological certainty was not handed down fully formed. It had to be worked out in the mind and conscience of the individual. That was dangerous. It shifted responsibility away from authority and onto the person reading.

That small medieval exercise turns out to be uncannily modern.

Inner Economy

At some point, something shifts. Not with a bang or a dramatic decision, but with a quiet refusal. You realise that continuing to participate costs more than it gives. Not just time or energy, but something harder to replace. Attention. Integrity. Calm. Once that realisation settles in, the old questions lose relevance. The question is no longer how to win, or how to fix the system, or how to be heard. It becomes how to remain intact.

Understanding how power actually operates has a sobering effect. It does not automatically make you cynical, nor does it turn you hungry for dominance. It strips away illusion. You see that institutions are not guided by their stated values but by incentives, visibility, fear, and internal politics. You see that competence offers no protection, that good intentions generate no leverage, and that results matter only when someone powerful chooses to recognise them. This knowledge is not corrosive. What corrodes is pretending otherwise.

A Different Kind of New Year

You expect New Year to be a celebration.

Fireworks. Music. A brief agreement to feel hopeful.

This year showed something else.

My twelve-year-old watched the ball drop in New York.

The crowd cheered. The singer did her job, standing alone on a stage meant to carry meaning for millions.

Beneath the lights ran a live ticker of words.

Not wishes.

Not joy.

Mockery. Cheap cruelty from strangers paying nothing for attention.

It unsettled her.

The Cost of Carrying What Is Not Yours

Helping someone professionally is not the same as helping a friend.

A friend asks for support.

A client often arrives because everything has already collapsed.

Many professional helpers are driven by a quiet hope. They want to repair a part of themselves by repairing others. They want to be useful. Needed. To believe that effort can still turn chaos into order.

Edible Entertainment

Most of what we call food today is not food.

It is entertainment that happens to be edible. Designed in laboratories, refined in marketing departments, calibrated to hit the brain’s reward circuits harder than hunger ever could. We keep eating not because the body needs more, but because the dopamine loop has not yet closed. Appetite ends. Stimulation does not.

So perhaps the simplest form of rebellion left is this: eat real food. Food that grew somewhere, lived somewhere, died somewhere. Food that exists outside spreadsheets and branding decks. Real food does not chase you. It does not negotiate with your impulses. It supports the body quietly, builds instead of hijacks, and produces energy that lasts longer than the buzz.

The Hand on Your Shoulder

Most people think sunk cost is an economic concept. Something technical. Something neutral. It belongs in textbooks and business schools, not in daily life. In practice, it runs much deeper. It is one of the quiet ways the past keeps a hand on your shoulder long after it should have stepped back.

The gym is just how it introduces itself. You keep paying not because it works, but because you once believed it would. The money is already gone, yet it still expects loyalty. You tell yourself you should go more often. Not out of desire. Out of obligation. Loyalty to a decision made by a slightly younger, slightly more hopeful version of you. That person no longer exists, but the invoices keep arriving.

Once you see the pattern, it becomes hard to unsee.

Night

I woke in the middle of the night, not dreaming, not yet awake. The mind unguarded. Thoughts arriving without invitation.

What occurred to me was simple.

In the future, being rich will not mean having more things.

It will mean still being a self.

Poverty is usually described in material terms. Money, comfort, access. That language belongs to a receding world. The one forming now sorts people differently.

Those who still think.

Those who are thought for.

After the Timeline Breaks

There is a moment that comes quietly, often the morning after something decisive, when you wake up and time no longer feels continuous. The past is still there. You remember it clearly. But it no longer reaches forward and carries you with it.

It made sense then.

You were there when it happened. You acted without watching yourself act. You endured without narrating endurance. You responded to what was in front of you, not to an idea of who you were supposed to be. The coherence of that past was not heroic. It was lived. The moment demanded something and you met it. That was enough.

Now that certainty is gone.

What Happened to the Words, After They Were Spoken

Old faces from another life surface like artifacts stirred up by a passing current. On an ordinary day they appear, as they do, in the drifting feed of Facebook. Suddenly the past is in the room again. Not the whole thing. Just a face, a name, a few afternoons in the heat of a kibbutz, a sense of being young and raw and still becoming someone.

Then the pull: should I reconnect?

It is not a question about a Facebook click. It is a question about what to do with a ghost that is not dead. It’s like a hand pressing to the glass from the other side.

The Brutal Truth About Personal Change

There is an entire industry built on hope. Seminars, books, coaches, podcasts. Different packaging, same promise: you can change, you can become more, you can finally arrive. The tone is warm, encouraging, almost parental.

It sounds good. It just isn’t very true.

The Lesson of a McDonald’s Drink

The other day, sitting with my daughter at McDonald's, she sipped her drink and said something that caught me: “This one isn’t too sugary. It’s not too bad.”

An innocent remark. But it stayed with me.

Children meet the world with untrained senses. They test, they sample, they conclude quickly. If something doesn’t taste like poison, it must be acceptable. That is not stupidity. That is freshness.

Yet behind that cup, behind the red and yellow arches, sits one of the most efficient machines of extraction ever built. McDonald’s is not really about food.

Ghosts of Legitimacy

I don’t know much about China. I’ve been there once. Took a train from Zurich to Shanghai. Travel doesn’t make anyone an expert.

But from a distance, I see a paradox: a state that quotes Marx while running one of the hardest capitalist machines on the planet.

People say Xi reads Marx in the morning while presiding over property bubbles, sweatshop shifts, and a billionaire class that could buy half (or probably all) of Switzerland. Everyone knows it’s absurd. Yet the portrait of Marx stays on the wall. Marx himself remains as a ghost. A relic that blesses what would otherwise look like plain authoritarian capitalism.

But the West should not laugh too loudly.

Discount Dream

I was in a German discount supermarket this afternoon. Fluorescent light. Grey floor. Long aisles of repetition.

A young woman passed me. She worked there.

Her face was flawless. Full makeup. Camera-ready. She could have stepped out of Germany’s Next Topmodel. But her body moved on autopilot. Slow. Procedural. Her eyes were empty behind the lashes.

And I thought: what happened?

Atlantis, Lost and Found

People keep scanning the ocean floor for ruins, as if Plato hid a city there for archaeologists with better drones. Marble columns under saltwater. Temples sunk in silt. Walls that collapsed in a single tragic night. They wait for a diver to surface with proof.

They keep looking in the wrong place.

The Death of Decorum

Decorum is an old word. Today it sounds ornamental, like something to do with manners or polite distance. People associate it with surfaces.

That was never its core meaning.

Decorum was about fit. About whether someone’s behavior made sense in light of the situation they were in. About carrying yourself in a way that matched the role you occupied and the weight that came with it.

Some positions demanded restraint. Others demanded authority. Sometimes silence mattered more than speech. The point was not virtue or performance. It was coherence.

A shepherd borrowing the voice of a ruler would have sounded wrong immediately, as if he were wearing clothes that did not belong to him. A ruler was expected to absorb pressure without complaint. When a judge began to seek attention, the office itself was already compromised.

Not because these people were better than others, but because their roles imposed limits. Those limits gave shape to conduct.

The Stoics took this seriously. For them, ethics did not begin with self-expression. It began with accepting the part you had been given and acting in a way that honored it. No fantasies. No escape hatches. Just the role that was actually yours.

That way of thinking assumed a world with weight.

The modern world does not have that kind of weight.

The Failure of Utopias

Utopias do not collapse because they aim too high.

They collapse because they misread the material they try to shape.

Every ideal begins clean and ends like a smudged memo no one wants to sign. The idea is rarely the enemy. The human animal usually is.

They always open the same way.

A wound in history.

A promise of something better.

A new design for living.

Communism began like that. The European project began like that. Countless bright-eyed communes did too. Blueprints always shine before the first dent.

The flaw sits in the center.

The Right Temperature

Gold is never pure when you pull it out of the earth. It comes mixed with the rest of the mountain. Fire is what separates what belongs from what only clings. There is no drama in it. Just heat, rising until the metal answers.

People are not gold, but the principle holds. Most of what we carry is not essential. It is drift. Opinions never examined. Fears inherited without consent. Obligations that hardened into reflex. A cargo of small untruths we keep because the world rarely demands that we wake up.

Life stays lukewarm for years. In that temperature nothing burns away.

Where Are You at Home?

A street cat found me on Siam Square in Bangkok fifteen years ago.

I noticed her near the Lido cinema. She had that look street animals get when they have already decided something and are just waiting for you to catch up. She followed me. She was talking to me. Not desperately. Calmly. As if I was late for an appointment.

I told myself I would keep her for two weeks. Long enough to find someone sensible. Someone settled. Someone who knew how to do things properly. Fifteen years later she is still here. In another country. In the snow.

I named her Lido, after the place where she chose me. The cinema is gone now. She isn’t.

Hello, Friends

My daughter was with her mother this weekend, so the apartment felt like a stage after the actors leave.

Not lonely. Just hollow in a way the walls already know.

The night before, I had visited a friend. We drank a little wine, talked the usual nonsense, and I came home late. I slept longer than I meant to. The kind of sleep where you wake up blurred around the edges.

I stumbled into the kitchen to make coffee. I wasn’t awake yet, not really.

And there they were.

Three flies, circling in the middle of the room like a miniature weather system.

A tiny cyclone with wings.

Before I understood what I was doing, I heard myself say it.

Hello, friends.

You Are Dating an Ecosystem

There was a time when a relationship meant two people in one household, trying to live with each other.

That era is gone.

You don’t date a woman anymore.

You date what her feed serves you.

Her group chat.

The Instagram explore page that shapes her taste.

The vocabulary borrowed from her favorite online therapist.

Micro-influencers she follows without thinking.

The TikTok algorithm that nudges her mood.

The attachment style she diagnosed herself with.

Opinions from friends, refreshed by the hour.

You are never with one person alone.

You are dating an ecosystem.

Caught Between a Rock and a Hard Place

Chaucer understood something about us that we still pretend not to know.

On the Canterbury pilgrimage he places two tales side by side.

First comes the Knight, offering a vision of order.

Then the Miller barges in with a joke that scrapes the bottom of the barrel.

What follows is more than medieval storytelling.

It becomes an x-ray of the human condition.

Zero to One for the Soul

I read Zero to One the lazy way. A few pages. If I want to sound fancy, I call it the McLuhan method: let your own mind fill the rest.

So I have to warn you. I don’t know anything about Peter Thiel. But I saw a ghost leaning over his shoulder: René Girard.

Thiel doesn’t have to write the word mimesis. It’s already in the paper. Girard said people don’t really want things. They copy each other’s wanting. They borrow desire the way drunks borrow lighters. Half-conscious. A little sad. Not very original. Desire spreads like flu. Thiel turned that insight into business advice: stop copying, stop competing, build something no one else can imitate.

A Manual for Spiritual Survival

How to Hold the Line Between Peace and Poison:

Some people can’t be cut out and can’t be let in.

They hover at the edges of your life like unstable weather.

Sometimes bright.

Often dangerous.

Always unpredictable.

You learn to read them the way sailors read skies.

You don’t argue with a storm.

You steer around it.

In Love With a Machine: The Sandman Algorithm

In 1816 someone fell in love with a machine.

Enter the Sandman.

E. T. A. Hoffmann’s The Sandman is not just a gothic relic from another century. It reads like a warning about the world we walk through now.

The plot: Nathanael falls in love with Olympia, the beautiful daughter of his physics professor. He pours his longing into her stillness and mistakes his own reflection for her perfection. When he learns she is an automaton, the shock breaks him mentally. The story of the Sandman shows what happens when a fragile mind prefers the comfort of its own delusions to the weight of reality.

It feels close to home.

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